Lovely Weekend...

Such a good weekend with the love of my life... 


They say "Every day should be Valentine's day if you really love someone"... 
and I agree.. and am lucky enough to spend (practically) every day with the love of my life...


Saturday we got up bright and early to do something this little munchkin has been begging to do for over a year (ok, anyone that says I give this kid everything he wants is crazy..., it took a year of begging for me to break down and do this one)....


We went fishing.... 

We went to a local park that has a lake that's stocked with fish every week so I figured our chances would be pretty good... 

Now fishing or anything outdoorsy besides the beach just isn't my thing AT ALL... 

But Drew being the professional fisherman that he is (he's fished once with his dad about 6 months ago)...

decided he would take charge and handle it all. 

This kid is NOT the most patient child in the world... waiting just isn't fun when you're 6 (or 27 if you ask me)..  so he would throw his line out there, wait about 10 seconds, and reel it back in and do it again... over and over and over again.. for 3 hours straight.

Needless to say, we didn't catch anything... but we had a good time... 

Unfortunately for me Drew want's go back there again... probably more than once..

Sunday was Valentine's Day and I got to spend the morning with my 2 loves....

 

Drew and the Beach

It was such a beautiful day in Balboa... 

I absolutely LOVE the beach.. and after all the yucky rain and wind we've been having, it was the perfect place to be!

Now the weather was beautiful.. sunny and warm... 

the water, however; wasn't so nice.. it was freezing. 

But not to Drew.. that kid kept running in and out of there.. 

chasing waves and pretending he was a water bender (way too much of that Avatar cartoon in our house)... 

We went to the marina for lunch... and took a trip through the museum.... 

Our Valentine's dinner plans did not go as planned at all... but I promised Drew I'd make it up to him real soon (FYI: John's Incredible Pizza is the busiest place on Earth on Valentine's day).

Hope you all had a LOVELY weekend.... 

XOXO

The Storm of 2010

2010 has started off as a storm... 

First, there's the fact that there's actually been a few real storms here in typically sunny California...

Then there's the "Life Storm" that occurred....

and still hasn't fully gone away. 

I am not a fan of storms. I'm not a fan of rain AT ALL real or metaphorical.

2010 has brought some thunder... and not the good kind, boy do I miss the good kind some days..

I seem to have lost control in this storm... 

I'm a mom... a single mom... so I am used to having complete control 24/7/365...

Maybe 'Lost' isn't exactly the correct word for it.. 

The control has actually been taken from me... by horrible force...

This storm is draining me... 

physically, mentally and emotionally...

As much as I hate this stormy weather here in So. Cal.... it does seem to fit my life for the moment.

But just like every storm... the rain must come to an end...

and at the end of the rain, there is always a rainbow. 

Lucky for me, I get to hug and kiss my personal little rainbow on a daily basis...

This storm sucks... the real one and the metaphoric one... 

But my rainbow gives me a purpose..gives me hope..and more determination than any storm could ever possibly posses. 

There's no storm in the world that is stronger than the determination and undying love and devotion of a mother. 

Good luck storm... cause this Mama is just getting started at fighting back. 

Tooth Fairy

Last night I got to be the Tooth Fairy for the first time ever.... 

This stubborn little tooth had been loose for 5 months!!

I knew the thing was ready to fall out any time now... and I was worried that it would fall out the next day at school and I'd miss the whole big event so I told Drew to just pull it out. 

He played with it for awhile.. wiggling it in every direction he could.. and then finally, with a little tug, my baby's first tooth came out. 

He was pretty surprised... didn't really know what to think.. but he was so proud of himself for being the one to pull it out because Mom was already threatening to get the pliers..

Congratulations Drew!!!

And after the tooth was safely placed under his pillow... 

and my baby bear was fast asleep.... 

came the hard part... Tooth Fairy Time!!

Normally it wouldn't be such a big deal, just slip in when the kids asleep and take the tooth and leave some cash.... 

but no... not in our house.

Drew sleeps with our too little chihuahuas Frankie and Brady...

And Brady likes to bark whenever he hears a noise or sees anything or anyone (even ME) at night.

So as soon as he heard me come close to the room, he starts yapping.. LOUD.. 

luckily the little man didn't wake up and I was able to complete the mission.

The tooth fairy left $5.00 for this tooth... Drew was pretty excited... but then asked if he could pull Frankie's teeth out so he can get more money... awww... gotta love how the 6 year old mind works! 

First Time For Everything

Last weekend was Drew's first trip up the mountains to the snow.

We weren't exactly dressed properly ... but we had a blast. 

It was a great day up at Canyon Ridge Lake and we plan on going back there very soon. 

The Wall.....

I wish I could pin point the exact day I started... not sure why, just because... 


I'm guessing it was at age 13... 


13 was an interestingly, difficult, romantic (i know), life changing year for me... 

I believe that's the year I started laying the foundation for "The Wall"...


The beginning of the wall was built with anger, frustration, and desperation... 
Now I need to mention this, the wall was never an intention. It wasn't in the plans at all.. it was built because I felt it was necessary... very necessary. The foundation of the wall was built by Mom, Daniel, Dad.... and my self. 


Then a few years later... around age 16... I started adding more layers to the wall.. 

These layers were all my responsibility. No one contributed to these... the blame for these layers was completely in my hands. These layers were built with disgust, trust, failure, fear, lies, pain and love. From age 15 to 19 I added 34 layers to that wall.... These are MY layers... unintentional... but fully aware.

Many people have noticed the wall.... countless have been affected by the wall... and just about everyone has been kept out by the wall... The sturdy foundation, the added 34 layers.. and counting.. allowed the wall to do exactly what it was built for... 

To this day, there have been 3 people who have been allowed to look over the wall.... Never stepping foot on the other side, of course, even though one tried more than his heart was capable of... 

In 2003, the wall became a fortress... the wall instantly shot up 50 feet higher.. became 20 feet thicker.... a moat was built around the wall... a security was on high alert 24/7/365..... these layers were built with love, hope, fear, devotion, responsibility, dedication and determination.... 

On October 21, 2003 after giving birth to my beautiful son, I wrapped him up tightly in his blanket.. the moon & stars one I made him .... and carried him inside the fortress and locked all 3,563 doors behind us. My Drew would be the only one ever allowed on the other side of the wall.... 

On that day the wall took on a whole new meaning... this was no longer just MY wall... this was OUR wall. The wall would now be used to protect my innocent little angel from every thing and everyone I could.. at any and all costs... 

And for the last 6 years, that wall has stood strong... and proud... not even slightly phased by the attempts made to climb over it... or peek inside... or heaven forbid, destroy it.... 

But this week the wall was tested once again.... tested by a person who knows the wall... very well... a person who knows the purpose and the strength behind the wall.... a person who I expected to agree with, understand and respect the wall, and help me to keep it intact..... 

And the wall stood strong.... but the wall once again grew... in height, and in depth... this time adding layers out of fear, desperation, tears, disappointment, hurt, and anger.   

The wall is permanent.... and apparently, ever-growing.... some times part of me wishes the wall had never been created.... but every day I'm reminded of the necessity of the wall... 

The wall is permanent. 

Under the Weather..

My little angel is sick today... not good.. 
He's been running a fever since yesterday and when he coughs.. or sneezes.. he sounds like a seal..


So little man is spending the morning at work with mommy until we can get into the doctor... who didn't have any available appointments until this afternoon. 


Not an ideal situation... but it's the reality of a single working mother... of a sick little man. 


Hope everyone else is enjoying their Wednesday... Happy Hump Day!! 2 more days to go till the weekend!!

Hello January

So I'm a bit late... it's been January for 20 days now.. oh well, better late than never. 


So far 2010 hasn't been so bad. A friend of mine at work lost his job, which really sucks... 
but other than that I have no complaints.

I took my first trip of the year to the beach on January 10th... and it was perfect. There were hardly any people out there and the weather was amazing. Only in Southern California can you get a tan in January... It was a little "Me Trip"... just a good book and a caramel macchiato to keep me company. 

and last weekend we went up to Vasquez Rocks for a little hiking. We met my mom and my sister's family (minus my migraine-stricken-sister) out there and had a very exhausting, but enjoyable day. Once again, great weather and no complaints. 

Little Man & I waiting outside the dentist...

Drew is still in his Michael Jackson phase, which makes for some pretty entertaining nights around the house... or in Wal-mart... or Starbucks... wherever the mood to dance strikes him.

So far so good in January ..... Hope the rest of the year continues well.

Drew has a doctors appointment in February to have an abnormal mole checked out on his head... of course I'm already panicking and trying to stress... but I'll wait till we get the results before I fully freak out... but I am hoping for the best as always when it comes to my angel.